I am back, I am trying to figure out what direction to take this , and everything in my life. What people have always hated about me is that I don't just sit quiet or turn a blind eye. Let me explain, since as far back as I can remember I have been a fighter, not just drama, beating up others lol. I mean a fighter for truth and rights. I swear I was just born this way. In elementary school my first boyfriends were African American, and I remember going head on with family, outsiders , and defending my rights and the rights of others.
I was in high school , whenever I witnessed a bully picking on someone , I was right there, yes sometimes it became physical but to me , you can do what you want, I won't stay quiet. I joined many groups as a teenager, against big corporate America, I joined Peta since I was also a vegetarian back then, I join feminist groups... you name it lol.
So when I joined the Christian cult , yes at times I did struggle with the mind control and damn I just wanted to fit in lol, but 80% of the time I was studying to show how wrong they were, I was forming womens groups where other women in this cult could come vent and see the madness they were living in. Even if they didn't leave, I know my words made them think long and hard. I was always questioning people there, making them think. I was labeled , I was smeared, I really didn't care.
Here I am today and yes I use social media as a platform for speaking my views, but is that enough? I am coming to the realization that I was created this way for a reason, hell who knows, maybe I was an big activist in my past lives, speaking out against the horrors of humanity. I know that I have tried to stay quiet and peaceful. So many have tried to make me seem dramatic, or stirring the pot because I can't stick my head in the sand and just live a life for myself. I actually detest others who can easily do that. If you are in a position right now where you are 1. white 2. living in America 3. not living in total poverty or strung out etc, then how?? how can you rest at night? How can you wake up each day and only think of yourself? You get up each day and all you think about is you, how will you be successful? How do you feel? What can you do for you? ugh! This world is falling apart. I am in no way saying to live in fear, or to go around hating others. You are free to be your selfish self , to take all you can get out of this Capitalist Corporate America who has no interest in you, who is not looking out for your best , you are cattle. America is the best human farm we have. You are bred the same way cattle are on a farm, they use to for their profit, they make you think you have what little freedoms they offer, you are brainwashed into thinking all you see is all there is. What a shame.
Then some get this idea and they are all " oh we have it so good, we are so free, Jesus gives us abundance", seriously? You think the way the world is , that it is freedom? You are forced to live in the confinements they place on you and you think that is as good as it gets. Even if the system worked for me, even if I bought into the illusion that all life is about is the junk the media and internet places in front of me, a big house , a few nice cars, I can vacation, I can have materialistic things, send my kids to the best school so they can join this rat race too... I would still not be okay with the system and how it keeps the poor down and works for the 1%.
This illusion does not appeal to me at all, real freedom does, a world where we get to do what we were meant to do. Live on this land equally that we all have a right to. Not pay big banks to live in their homes, on the governments land! To be able to chose how I live, If I want to go build a house on some land and not hook up to big utility government run corporations, I should be able to , grow my own food etc. Nope, not anymore! This is not allowed anymore. You are forced to live their illusion that only benefits them. As far as the way other humans are treated, yeah it makes me sick so many bury their heads in the sand. Other races, addicts, the poor, the media makes you believe they are the enemy.
I know this fire in me burns for a reason and I know it is time for me to do something. Focusing on trying to have the best life inside this false reality is something I have never been good at, brainwashing is real and I hope many more wake up. I read something recently and it said, I don't fear the guys with the funny mustaches or crazy hair, I fear the millions of blind, brainwashed average people that put them in power. What so many fail to see is when we stop living their false reality and we the people demand things change, they will. We are the puppets but we can cut the strings.
So I am studying and learning all I can about politics, corporations, reading up on Marx, I am putting together a plan of action, I refuse to live this placid life. If it means living the life of a minimalist and not feeding corporate America then I will to the best of my ability. If it means speaking out at every chance, then I will, if it means blogging, writing, whatever , I will. The time is here for change, it will happen for or against us, I will not get to the end of my life and regret doing nothing. I will live this life to the fullest , in MY own way, and fighting for others as well.
